oh... it was the gatsby dance part at zouk at first. after the event is over.. we hopped over to the velvet underground. i hopped over with a heavy heart... for undisclosed reason. :(ladyboy free clip

it is quite sad that a few people had to leave and not continue with the night out, especially liting!ladyboy free clip

oh this was my first time in velvet underground. and seriously i wasn't expecting to be this small crowd. is it the norm or is the recession hitting hard? and so the smart wq decides to get a table and, you know, we HAD to open a bottle for the table. and the total bill set us back by like $230!!!! but i must agree it wasn't that bad la, it would be a good choice if we want to just find somewhere to sit and chill... but i kind of wanted to drink in jugs and shooters. and i didn't get the drink the flaming.. and I WANT TO GET HIGH AND DANCE. but all that didn't happen.ladyboy free clip

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i realised that i tend to wake up early the next morning if i had a drinking night before. like for today, i woke up at around 7am and had since been trying to get myself back to sleep. it wasn't a restful sleep because i keep waking up because of some dreams or wat. i think i wasn't really sleeping, because i remember thoughts were constantly on my mind. ladyboy free clip

oh and i dreamt that i came up with 2 jokes. i forgot the first one, but i remember the 2nd one. it goes like this... i dreamt that i saw this gal who wore this dress with real coins stuck all over it (for whatever fucking weird reason). so in the dream, i asked my friend this: "hey, why did the girl fail her exam?"ladyboy free clip

ANSWER: "because she don't take notes (as opposed to coin, geddit?)" HAHAHA... ok i realise that it isn't so funny now, but it sure sounded damn funny in my dream.ladyboy free clip

i tried to replicate this joke by using "why did the jackpot machine fail his exam?"... then weilin came and tell me she had seen before a jackpot machine that accepts notes... so wtf. vending machines also accept notes now... argh.ladyboy free clip

OH DAMN! THE WEIRD EFFECTS OF ALCOHOL!ladyboy free clip

we should bring up our lists of friends, clear the dust and update them every now and then.ladyboy free clip

perhaps it is the right time for me to update mine. relegate those who i think used to matter but does not matter anymore. they know who they are.ladyboy free clip

and reinstate those who i neglected but really matters.ladyboy free clip

and i looked at my list and found out.. the list is really getting shorter.ladyboy free clip

the blame could lie on either me or them. or both of us.ladyboy free clip

... then don't tell me in the first place.ladyboy free clip

being closed could mean either "being closed to a person" or "being closed and shut off from sharing one's feeling." so that's the irony.ladyboy free clip

so i wish to talk abt this... how many times we thought that we're close to these specific bunch of people, only to realise that we're feeling our worst, we're so afraid of revealing our vulnerable and weak self to them?ladyboy free clip

i'm so guilty of that and, recently, i found that i'm not the only one feeling this. which led me to think: how did we, this bunch of us who felt the same way, end up like this?ladyboy free clip

the real poison is when we refuse to vent out to someone, the toxic just keeps circulating throughout your body, mind and thought, eroding your well-being each day. yet, what push us to one corner, where we refuse to share to others, either because we're so ashamed of how we felt or we're afraid that the other end could not help us but yet bombarding us with advices which we don't need, when what we really need are hearing buddies.ladyboy free clip

it is sad that some of us end up like this. we REALLY shouldn't be afraid to say what we feel like saying, vent what we feel like venting, vomit when we feel like choking.ladyboy free clip

but of course, i'm just saying. this is not an advice or anything. i'm just saying, let's try not to feel so caged up anymore, and find someone who gives a damn about us in these times of needs.ladyboy free clip

it had been a long while since i went zouk.. the feeling is quite nostalgic.ladyboy free clip

apple shooters are super yummy btw. mojito also tasted quite good.ladyboy free clip

but it's always the long island which pushed me to the brink...it was the same for the last time.. think i drank that one too fast..ladyboy free clip

this time is much better... more controlled... and i was just feeling drifty and high..ladyboy free clip

when the cab reached my house, i felt so nauseous because the damn cab kept braking.. so i just wanted to lie down for a while before going home to sleep.. woke up at 6am after 2.5 hrs to find myself lying on the bench haha..ladyboy free clip

oh my... alcohol is such an amazing and scary thing.ladyboy free clip

and i think i spent a lot last night :(ladyboy free clip

well... next saturday to zouk again! for lileng's gatsby dance party!ladyboy free clip

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gosh... i really hate going to acupuncture... it's so painful... i seriously think i got low pain tolerance. i mean... you would have thought it's like a jab, but it's not. the needles are like striking the bones or nerves or something, and it can, like, cause my whole hand or leg to feel the pain.. and plus it's damn freaking weird to be lying down on the bed with the needles sticking out for like 20 min or so... i tried not to move a muscle in case something bad happens.ladyboy free clip

so yesterday in my visit, he decided to try something new and stick 2 needles into the back of my neck and i was like WTF!ladyboy free clip

and he would try to massage my neck (painfully..) and asked me if it's painful or not. i would grimaced and said "yes", then he would conclude that it's because of my symptom.. i was thinking like "fuck! everyone would feel pain the way you're pressing into my flesh now!"ladyboy free clip

and i have to like do this every week... damn it. i so don't look forward to this. oh i didn't mention... it was supposed to be a long-term cure for my sinus...ladyboy free clip

to make matter worse, each visit is freaking expensive. like $40 bucks? my first visit they prescribed me with this jar of dunno-what-fuck herbal medicine powder which cost an insane $390!?ladyboy free clip

you know... going to this sinseh wasn't my idea in the first place... she should have told me about the high cost of the medication and the visit.. now i felt like i'm paying for something i didn't ask for, and it's irritating the hell out of me because it is ruining my financial planning and budget. i mean... how would i expect that I WOULD HAVE MEDICATION for acupuncture?! i wouldn't mind paying for the consultation... but damn, the medicines are freaking insane.ladyboy free clip

so this better works, or i would be so fucking cheated and pissed. i intend to go there for 5 more times, if it doesn't work, it doesn't work. and that will cost me about $680 in total... i mean... does acupuncture actually work for sinus? i'm so skeptical..ladyboy free clip

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the worst surface of ground to drop your phone on would be the tarmac of the road. guaranteed disfigurement... it happened to my ex-ex-phone. and it happened to my current phone yesterday. just before the sinseh's visit. one after another sigh...ladyboy free clip

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open house duty tomorrow. ok la, at least i got nothing on on sat. then can claim on off-day. so quite ok...ladyboy free clip

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i think i'm going to pick up my bum and go back to the drawing board, and resume my designing. it is getting very rusty liao. and i'm getting lazy too.ladyboy free clip

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macworld did not release the new imac. sad :(ladyboy free clip

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i had loaded my work cubicle with snacks! hello panda, twisties, gummies, crackers - results from a short grocery spree at causeway points. the value shop really has, erh, good-for-value stuffs! very tempted to buy the lays potatochip for my office, but you know... it's addictive and fattening la.. haha.. so refrain from it. thanks to my great resilience haha.ladyboy free clip

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oh, my kent box came damaged. sigh... you know me.. perfectionist collector blah blah... i emailed the fella and he promised to send me a new box. i hope he keep to his promise... i cannot accept damaged collection!ladyboy free clip

i remembered that it was a great feeling to attend school. i would love forward to school each day (not for the lessons, of course. in fact, i was more like hoping for the lessons to end quickly), hoping that i could get to see my crush during recess breaks or something, and feeling excited about it. and then bashfully looking up to look at her, and feeling contented with the slightest glance and her presence.ladyboy free clip

it was a nice feeling. and i missed that.ladyboy free clip

how to create a stronger impression on the ladies - ladyboy free clip

"sexy beats cute. smart beats sexy. funny beats smart."ladyboy free clip